Perhaps most of all
I never really thought you’d ask
Why I keep looking at the lights of the past, why wouldn’t I

Perhaps worst of all
I hope you’d stand tall
Climbing up around the mountain
Coming home like it was nothing

I really tried to tie myself down to the foundations
The buildings scare me too much now for taste or a temptation
I am wandering a countryside you never saw the inside of
I look up now
You are above me
You claim to know
How to love me
But you haven’t found any peace, any truth
no questions

How can I free myself from my despair
How can my despair free me
Man, I’ll meet you anywhere
Anywhere you find me

I laid my soft wide hopes right there
They slayed my salvaged heart and stared
Struck the record so swiftly
Worked to poison my memory

Hay una persona que viera

The form of your lies always casts a shadow

If I’m useful to you, tell me how

Can’t tell if I let something in or out

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I checked the systems the storm is hitting

There’s nothing we can do

But ride unaided down through ruined time

where the waters dissolve you

Brushing your hair back, I fall through the mirror

like the past is accurate

But I’m not the figurine the winner dreamed of holding on to

Suddenly mountains oppress me,

impressions have threatened me,

And I’ll never know what it truly means

Why you died when I was seventeen

Suddenly fountains upset me

The water is all I have

Please do not forget me

Please take me instead

Please do not forget me

Please take me instead

Please do not forget me

Please take me, take me instead

You are the burning torch

my heart looks for

in darkness

I wait out on my porch

to catch a glimpse

Gliding by, you decide that you are only riding

To a glorious place

I cannot go

But I know where you have been

How to be still in a collapsing ruin

Holding my strength up to the storm

I am the boat, I am the open water

I am the first place you’ll look in the wreck, right here

Interrupting my attention

At a table sat a warning

They said my soul was antediluvian

They ordered their usual and then

I replied, “that might be true,

but It only sounds negative

coming from you”

Is this the inevitable end

Or another red herring

Eating my time again

This is a burning porch

my heart runs

for in darkness

I wait out with the torch

to catch a glimpse

Of this place I know you ride to

when the seasons are changing

A ruined place, I cannot be

But I see where you have been

You were only riding (you were only riding)

To a glorious place (to a glorious place)

I cannot go (I cannot go)

But I know where you have been

You were only riding (you were only riding)

To a glorious place (to a glorious place)

I cannot go (I cannot go)

But I know where you have been

I need a peace that I have never known

I gave up looking in a memory

Liberation from a stolen crown

Each year gone I swear an enemy

Wild to think how I’ve been doing this

Getting by and also getting hit

When I look down I can see the rain

That pours out of me when I abstain

I can hear things but I cannot grasp the shape of them

I can see things and I don’t know what to make of them

Gifts of silence I long coveted

When I have them my fear smothers them

I need a tool I’ve never seen

Came to me inside a melody

Civilization comes to pin me down

You talk to me like I’m the enemy

Someday

When this is all over

We will go home

Someday

I will know better

Than to come home

Someday

things will be harder

Thank god I know

You’re in line waiting for medicine

I’m in line waiting for my five minutes

Everything has a cost

Without the true price, I am lost

I need a trace of all the minerals

That accumulate inside of me

Build a better boat to get away

You flock to me, we crush the enemy

I need a sleeper hit and even more

I need a flag with ransom on the line

Cut a hole and sink the whole thing down

A bed at sea that I can visit now

What’s the word for what I feel

every summer cruising through the park

Every car adorned with the place we were before

The place that we come from

What’s the word for what I feel when a sliver of bandera flashes

tarnished silver older than the building

that I live in now, and can you tell me how

all the words for what I feel

rise like steam, an essence of who

I thought I’d be by now

Of what I’d see by now

What’s the word for what I feel

when I don’t know what kind of air I’m breathing

Breeze-like sorcery directs my feelings

about this dream

And what this version means

To the world that I feel

picking up the phone and understanding you

Somehow I can’t speak, it doesn’t come to me,

I wish there was a way

I thought someday it would hurt less

Direct address to myself in a mirror

Knee deep I try to dig deep, oracle

For proof that words are the only solace

I walked away and I learned less

I come correct to the mess in the mirror

Honesty never buried oracle

Its proof of life is the only solace

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Quién dijo eso? Who said that?

Que no sabes nada? That you know nothing?

Quién dijo eso?

(What’s the word)

Que no sabes nada?

(What’s the word)

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What’s the word for what I feel

every summer cruising through the park

Every car adorned with the place I was before

The place that I come from

Se fue la luz The power is out

but somehow it’s around you

one day you’ll feel

how warm it is

Glacier Walker

Steam rises and converges

The glacier has retreated half a mile from

Where it started

To show us just how much we’ve taken

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I’ve seen the space where

plates meet edge-to-edge

It hangs right there

Above my head

For all the days

I spend inside

I punish them

In how I try

To sing about the

Ghosts of everyone

I ever was and

Descendants I will never see

But part of me will always be

The bleeding edge born of the earth and

here we are

Do I wait on this moment,

can I count on it?

I can see it in the stars

We’re the only thing I really love

The one thing I can conceive of

I walk the glacier tracing

Ice so old, it’s a black hole

A mirror back into the past

Marching on the odds

that there’s a second paradise

If I could halt your gods

And listen to indifference

From the sleeping heat beneath

The cold above and older than

I could ever hope to see

For all the ways

She gets inside

Pushing her way

to the core of my mind

I can’t escape

The voice won’t lie

She says we’re done

But thinks we should try

The bleeding edge born of the earth and

here we are

Do I wait on this moment,

can I count on it?

I can see it in the scars

We’re the only thing I really love

The one thing I can conceive of

I walk the glacier tracing

Ice so old, it’s a black hole

Crossed a line on the main road

Your heart in raptures and I didn’t know

What to hate

I twist around the things you say to me

I am an artist, it takes energy

Hope disappearing down a black hole

My saddest laughter is an echo

A wraith that takes my shape

Something’s telling me to write things down

Something’s telling me to turn around

Get back in the water,

get back across the river now!

Give back the goodbyes I got

It’s a rising sun opening the ground

I’m moved by the spectral glow

On the morning snow

That abandons us

And when I return to you

In the earth, in bloom

What will I still fear

A movement I can’t resist

An upcountry kiss

To bless your land

Maybe in the future

We’ll all live forever

Born into a golden pool of light

and never fading

Will you come and get me?

Rescue me from obsolescence

Let me still be useful

I can carry something in my hands

Drawing back the curtains

Inside it is hurting me to

plan around the future

To nurture over sutures

Drunk and in the valley

What you could and couldn’t carry

Was it running circles round you

When you fell or when they found you

Temes como se mueve el tiempo You fear how time moves

te despiertas y ríes You wake up and laugh

El sonido está ladrando The sound of it is barking

Suelto dentro de la casa Loose inside the house

It’s a night drive down the highway

And the road makes time elastic

No sabes realmente lo que estás viendo You don’t really know what you’re looking at

Hasta que ya lo pasaste Until you’ve already passed it

Take my word as good as gospel

Or whatever other fossils

you keep in

the deep of your heart

Then it’s over, suddenly, bendiciones baby

Ya te ibas, de repente, bendiciones baby You were leaving, suddenly, here's your blessings, baby

You wear two thin coats

You make only war

Crumbs and futuristic visions

Unsettled on the floor

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Thinking about what I need to behave for

I’m sure I’ll burn that bridge when I get to it

Is it all still like you left it?

In the summer, sun floating

just behind the clouds

So hot that I could feel it

without seeing, without being blinded

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Your cries to me are disappointing

I gaze upon you like a painting

I ate it up, no apology

The wind was crossing and it had to push me

I’d bring it all down if I could

The horses, trees, the mountain of me

I can’t believe how hard they stood

In front of all I couldn’t be

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Your lies to me are so inviting

I wait for you to swing and

I bite it back, the rage the rage

It’s not enough to turn the pages!

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Looking back I landed

In a way that shows my empty hands and

You may always call my bluff

But know that will not be enough

I am just a small cry in the wide world

Wisdom came from northern winds and

Others decide this won’t be a long life

But the living do what they must to hide

And I’ll sleep in the safety of the petrified

Would you believe me if I told you

I’m caught up on everything

Reconciliation comes to the ones who hold on

Creation halts and earth is barren

Trawling waters that you never swam in, it’s wrong

I am looking for an answer but they are thin on the ground

Not in the clouds

Not yet

Me entenderías Would you understand me

¿entenderías que puedo ver? Would you understand that I can see?

casi nos fuimos We nearly left

hicimos las mismas We did the same things

cosas que vimos años antes, dolorosos Painful things we saw years before

En aire mal In the wrong context

Tal vez al final veré Maybe in the end I will see

Would you believe me

Would you believe me if I saw you again

I would try leaving

If I could see you

Me entenderías Would you understand me

¿entenderías que puedo ver? Would you understand that I can see?

casi nos fuimos We almost left

If I could see you, I would try anything